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After writing my previous post, which is actually a poem written by me, i figured out actually that poem has some sick thoughts inside as well..However, it just depends on how you want to see,understand or interpret it.
My finals are here.I had one so far,from computer science,which did not really go well.At least i finished my journalism final project before the finals started.with this laziness of mine,it would never happen,otherwise. I am kinda trying to do my theatre project,which did not go in the way i wanted it.I'm just hoping that the props i am doing do not fall apart until the morning..
One week later i will be leaving this place after 4 months..The day before yesterday, i had dinner with two American girls,which is an improvement.They were really nice people,both from California.
This week is going horrible,i feel like sleeping 24/7,and this should really not be happening. I have a math final on friday, which i havent really started studying yet.

Anyways.Today i was doing my sound project for theatre with one of my classmates, and we found this song on internet, "Angle theme". Although the song was not a complete one, it sounds really nice. Something similar to Apocalyptica style.
Yesterday night when i went to bed it was around 2.30am i guess, and i woke up at 4.40am, talked on the phone for 3.5 hours. i think that was one of the nicest conversations i have had in the past a couple of weeks..

There are things i dont understand in myself..It feels like i am looking or creating reasons to make myself feel messed up..i mean yes of course there are things which does not really go well in my life, but still...i dont like being this depressed person.
I dont wanna lose anyone in my life..
nothing more..

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