Yeeey..Another sleepless night..How cool,isnt it? It s almost 3am now, and i have early classes tomorrow.Well,i m not sleepy at all..
Monday is my worst day..I have every single classes,plus my two jobs.I really hate mondays.I havent had that monday syndrome for the past years of my life,but since i came to this place i m having it.Yes,it was thanksgiving break and i have gone to DC for 3days.Ate nice food at least and has been in a different environment.From time to time, i felt invisible though..You know you exist, but at the same time you dont..That was the way i felt..Well,i get that feeling whenever i m somewhere around couples.No matter how much they looked caring, i wanted to remain alone there as well.There was this day,i think it was the thanksgiving day actually.We went for a lunch to this really big house of someone,and since everywhere was closed,we were subjected to remain in the house after we returned back from lunch.I went to the basement level of the house,and went out,sat on the bench,listened to music and smoked a bit more than half a pack.That was such a relief until someone came and asked me what was up..Well, nothing was up, but i was quite happy with all the down things.Was enjoying myself,listening and talking to myself..From time to time every person needs it though.Then the next day, we went for shopping..nothing interesting.
Friday night i have returned back from dc, and i was totally knocked down that day.I took a shower,as always did not bother to unpack my bag(actually it has been 2days, and they are still inside of my school bag,lying just in front of my lovely,messy desk),and i hung out in my bed..It is funny that, this bed has this effect of keeping me away from sleeping.Whenever i lay on this bed,sth bothers me and prevents me from sleeping.Today i was reading sth online and realised i might be having cronic insomnia..Well well..Shit happens, is simply the best phrase i can refer to this situation.Yesterday, i drank a bit, then came back to the room quite earlier than others,and slept.Today,almost whole day i was in my bed..Talked to my mum,talked to r., talked to r. more..it was fun though..I really liked it.
I have this überlaziness these days.The worst thing is, i do not really feel guilty about it and it does not even bother me when i do not do sth.Studying is simply not happening,so i just dont bother to attempt anymore.nice logic,isnt it?
Anyways..I dont think this blog is that fun though..But simply i do not or cannot think of sth really interesting or clever right now.I m far away from all those, at this time of time,especially when i am looking for the things that can make me feel asleep.
maybe i should put an online sign-up list for the people who are willing to sing me a lulaby.Anyone? just doesnt work..I gave up.i dont try sleeping anymore,maybe that way it might work..(i m taking hunger as an example though..you know,they say you should not force babies or kids to eat that, one time will come and they will be really hungry and eat anyways,considering they cannot survive without it) However,my sleep decides always the weirdest times to come.And those times,i listen to it,but as i put my head on the pillow,pica bu! i cant sleep again..

Well well..Cheers for "shit happens" situations of our lives...